Friday, January 19, 2007
- - i suck! i sick BIG TIME! - -
Fine! I’m back here again!
Seems I’m all alone… theres no one out there that I can share my feelings with.
Its back to this virtual cyberspace who would absorb everything like a black hole.
I really don’t know why I’m here. It seems everything I do is wrong. I must have broken a trillion laws in my these 18 years alive! Nothing I do is every right. Its just Wrong! Wrong! Wrong! All the way. Even waking up the first in the morning just to take a bath is WRONG! I’ve to give in to people who wants to wash-up and watch The Simpsons frm 6-6.30am. Asking people to have initiative (zi dong) is also WRONG!
What else could happen?
I’ve never had friends who I feel that are the closes and is a true friend to me. But as time pass, I don’t know why, they just seem to drift further and further. Is it just my fate to be the loneliest idiot on earth. I’m just fated to be working for others, volunteering my services for others and slogging it out just for others?
I seriously don’t mind doing all these, even if its for FREE!!! I don’t mind. My only condition is just appreciate my work, my effort.
Everytime after I help/do something for people, I’m just brushed aside and they just forget about me until the next time they need me. I’m just a “saikang warrior” picking up everyone’s SHIT/MESS, what else am I good for?
I really don’t know what to do anymore. I’m really lost, really hurt. I just seem like an idiot. An asshole? An idiot?
Nobody really cares, only when they need me then they’ll do something about it.
I’m just a robot with no feelings. Whack me all you want! I’m just a tin of trash.
| - = kiwi88 = - @ 1/19/2007 02:26:00 pm|
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