Thursday, July 05, 2007
- What am i to U -
Hi this the 40 yr old man speaking!
I'm bloody short-tempered.
Got really angry today! So cool!!! never been this angry in a long time! <---( like real... so bloody pissed) Wee... woo hoo...
So this is how the story goes...
Got to school, went to jh stall. Sat there chatting... they going IC aft sch... Close stall at 4pm... i said i'll find them aft class(5pm).
15:59 } Jh called said he is on bus to ic already... bus at kap.
i was in class finishing up/packing up.
Don't know why...
Maybe i'm suay...
But its not the first time... and i don't think it'll be the last either...
i was mad, furious, exploding...
i felt as though its just my fate to be the one who is always forgotten...
i'm always there when people need me... and forgotten when people don't need me...
i can't always be so lucky to be the one forgotten...
so whats the explination?
Yes, i have to say, i'm BLOODY old! I'm 19 huaman years old (40 brain years old)...
I'm trying to adjust to be of 19 human years old with 19 brain years old...
Lame... lame is, i don't know... makes me feel more blend in with the rest... cause i've used to be a damn boring person who knows nuts about being lame and talking to people my age... i was just like a zombie... going around school doig SL n AV stuff... keeping me busy and not thinking about having no real friends...
I'm trying to adjust here and friends are saying i'm too lame... beat around the bush... can't give straight answers...
Think again... when you ask me where to eat... i give you straight answers... what do you do... you don't like it or someone wants to eat somewhere else, you just change and move there without informing me... i have to call and ask again and to find out you all have change my decision without even informing/telling me...
Then why ask me to make the decision in the first place if your not prepared to go where i decide?
Then again, this is not the 1st time you've forgot/p.s. me... the last time if i remembered correctly, i was in town after splitting up with eric n eileen... i've waited for you for supper cause you said you were able to meet after your stuff... and i've waited... in the end to find out that you've decided to change supper location and i would not be able to join you peeps for some reason... wow its like so cool!!! i like it so much!!! Thanks guys for that surprise!!! love it lots!
i really don't know what i should do anymore! give you all advice about yourself towards other(s) you all just let it go one ear i one ear out...
Do i need to spell almost everything out for you all...
1. My patience is short... if the same thing happens again, it gets shorter...
2. I don't like to count! (esp. $$$)
3. I hate NATO people
4. I don't like to freeload
5. If you like to count this is the break down!
I normally spend between 70-80% of my money on my friends!
6. I don't Pang Seh (P.S.) people cause i don't like people to P.S. me...
7. I don't like to use me underneath the skin... if you want to use me just tell me i'll willingly let you use me...
8. If you are not happy with the way i do things or just not happy with me for what ever reason, just tell me! i'll try my best to change for the better!
Note: This is for real! i'm serious!
| - = kiwi88 = - @ 7/05/2007 12:34:00 am|
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